The Turning Point

Okay, I deleted the whole post because I thought it wasn’t uplifting at all, total crap If i can put it in a harder way.

Complain, complain and complain, is that all we humans just do? Yes I am talking about myself, and LOADS of other people as well. Besides stop complaining and start working, there’s one more point that I’ve realised is hugely important as well. Sometimes, we just have to stop talking and start listening. To God.

I did that as soon as I realised that I have been too covered up by all these visual noise and forgot to be silent and listen to God.

Yesterday, being caught up on practicing my guitar for form worship the next morning in YC, I thought I would never be able to make it to write that essay. I stopped. I listened in desperation.

‘Go tell your dad about brats.’ He said, I knew it was Him, that familiar voice and just fullness that I felt. and I just realised that I actually forgot to tell my dad about this whole brats thing. So I did. ‘Eh, I think we have mission trip on that date la, to Camerons.’ my dad said. ‘Aiyar… you cannot make it man..’

I smiled.

Everything fell into place smoothly. =)

JoFan. We are used to audio and visual noise that even if we had 5 seconds of silence suddenly we would feel awkward.

Hmm… maybe i should start writing a resume. No, serious. It’s not like I’m signing up for college, a job or anything, but I see the need for it. Nope, not to boast either.

Wai Leem (again.. yes, we ‘communicate’ a lot coz he happens to sit right beside me in class, which is cool, haha!) was telling me about Crystal’s resume on her blog the other day so I did check it out, it IS kinda cool. That caught me into this topic.

Anyway, what I think is that if you start writing it now, you can see what you are lacking of and start to work on it so in teh future, 1. you don’t have to write from scratch, dude! 2. you will have a complete and awesome one if you have worked on it to balance every part of the resume.

You should do it too, so we can start criticizing each other, haha! Nah, but you get what I mean.

Update 2, Tim and I are working on this upcoming cool thing that you wouldn’t wanna miss to be a part of, it’s called MeJournals, a blog host created for our friends and everyone else. If you still don’t get it, it’s something like blogger or wordpress.com, evreyone can sign up for a blog there. Yes! Its THAT COOL! The reason you have to join is because YOU are my friend (lol, so cheesy), hahaha! Not only that, it beats blogger, wordpress or whatsoever bloghost you have out there in speed, we’ve got a great local server, lots of space and lots of bandwidth, you can upload just anything you want as big as you want there. But the point here is, it’s 30 times faster than blogger! Literally! (We pinged blogger and got 300ms, as for our MeJournals it’s a shocking 20ms, which means it takes a super fast time to respond) Beats evern google.com itself. So what are you hesitating! I mean, how often do you tell people, ‘Dude, I’m blogging on a blog host made by my friends!’ ?

It’s currently under construction, should be done in a week or two. So get yourself ready for, THE BOMB. Don’t worry, blogger or xanga or space stuff can be exported to your new blog at MeJournals.

On another note, I am joining BRATs (The Stars young journalist programme/workshop), that’s provided my essay is accepted by them, WHICH is also provided that I get my essay done by Sunday, hahaha! But it should be cool. =) If you ever read this by this week, it’s not to late to join if you think writing and journalism is rocking.

JoFan. My new blog is also on the way.

True friends are those who really know you but love you anyway.

Edna Buchanan

I like it simple and
I’m not a Superman
I never said that I was more than that
I’m not a wanna be
I’m who I want to be
And I intend to be
How you created me

[Pre-chorus:]
I… I need somebody on the inside
I… I want somebody who can set me free
I’m not The only one who feels like this
I’ve got a few others around me
Hey

[Chorus:]
Hey let me hear you say
Make some noise if you feel this way
Hey if you’ve got a friend like that
Hey let’s scream and shout
If you know what I’m talking about
Anybody got a friend like that

I once was little and
I always had a plan
You thought my friendliness
Was just an act (hey)
I’ll be your friend indeed
And you can count on me
And I can guarantee
Your friend I’ll always be

[Pre-chorus]
[Chorus]

Does anyone out there feel alone?
Can anyone hear me (woh, woh)?
Down and out your heart is cold
It’s never easy (woh, woh)
But if you believe that there is hope
Then sing it with me

[Chorus x2]

[Pre-chorus]

WaiLeem and I have been quite fascinated with those (in a super thick book) quotes we had from Mr Chan’s notes lately, they’re really inspiring. and here i am not getting enough of them, came to found lots more online.

Here are a few about writing:

How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live.
-Henry David Thoreau

I love being a writer. What I can’t stand is the paperwork.
-Peter De Vries
(Kyle, say AYE!)

The cure for writer’s cramp is writer’s block.
Inigo DeLeon
(Huh? but it’s cool)

Foolish writers and readers are created for each other.
Horace Walpole (1717 - 1797)
(haha! It just sounds wrong)

Just because some of us can read and write and do a little math, that doesn’t mean we deserve to conquer the Universe.
Kurt Vonnegut (1922 - 2007)
(Yes, read *ahem* this *ahem* Na*ahem*ji*ahem*b)

There are a lot of people who can’t write and maybe shouldn’t write.
Sarah Hepola
(hahaha! true true..)

JoFan. Inpiration is the best medicine for slow motion.

When I was still that innocent young child who first started to blog and know a little of what’s HTML all about, no idea what is php, thinks msn, imeem and photobucket is cool, and not to forget first started to mingle with photoshop.

This is quite embarassing, but THIS IS MY VERY VERY VERY FIRST BLOG!

Tim restored it, lol!

JoFan. DON’T Laugh, I was still young okay…. but it’s been a LOOONG WAY til here, it’s really humbling to see how God can work if you just let Him, really humbling. It’s really creating a forward motion for me to keep going on. I have came so far, there’s no reason why i can’t continue running and end the race and let all His will be done in me to the MAX!

yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken
don’t close your eyes, don’t close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you’ve got now
yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have
don’t close your eyes
don’t close your eyes

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

yesterday is a kid in the corner
yesterday is dead and over

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

don’t close your eyes
don’t close your eyes
don’t close your eyes
don’t close your eyes

this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life are you who you want to be

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

and you had everything to lose

I miss the days where we all go lepak outside church in the mamak or the coffee shop and talk crap, laugh and spend time together as great friends. Today everyones busy with their own stuff, leaders go leaders meeting, others go home, we barely speak to each other enough, I miss those days. I really do.

This might be the first time i post something that emo, but I really mean it. Maybe busyness is really what the devil use to cover our eyes of what really matters. We might be serving God in any way we could, go to church and worship with all our hearts, seeking Him with all we can, but we’re created to love, and have great friendships and relationships, not to live alone. Without relationship, communication and uplifting and supporting friends that God has created as a need for everybody, something is missing in the great lives we’re living, something really important.

JoFan.

PS: We will miss you Jovan! My brother! Remember not to get SHEEPed away in Perth, hahaha!

PPS: Everyone is somehow leaving, the year ahead would really be something entirely new to me. Rest assured I have my God with me, who will never ever change, always be the same great friend to talk to, to depend on and to be loved.